"When I am having bad days it feels like nothing I do is a win ... like I'm constantly fighting against the tide and even making tiny steps is too much. On these days I feel defeated. Like Anxiety and Depression have won. Like I could curl up in a ball on the floor and disappear; would anyone even notice. And if they did would they care. My mind tells me not so best to be defeated and alone. It becomes a frustrating merry go round of emotion"